i love you sayang.

morose

=( i woke up so late at 3pm. i don't know why i woke up so late. then i read u dont love me msg. =( i so sad i so sad. now is already 7pm and still no msg from him. im so worried. bt i think he's sleeping too?? i dont know. i so sad. =(

i am doing my essay now. stuck at question 2.. i hate this teacher. sighhhhh

i miss you baby.. i miss you so much please msg.

i didn't do my essay. watch tv, eat and sleep the whole day. VERY PRODUCTIVE. hehe and i really need to update my resume. LAZY one more month and school will end.. (=

hmm..

i really don't knw hw to start finding. like i have the diploma. but in this retail industry they all need this 2 years experience... blah blah blah. though i have those experiences. FUCK i;ve been working since i'm sec 3. hmm.. but i;m scared to like straight away take that 1 big step. even to be a supervisor u need to have experience. looking at my age 21. they will of coz judge me.. that i'm not mature enough to think and all that. all though i have role plays to handle such thing. to understand and straight away solving the problem.

OH STOP MAS. if you think this way. i will never get ahead of myself. oh please god. berilah aku petunjuk.

i can do it. i don't need to take that big step. maybe i just apply for the supervisory role first. yea?? and why is that? hmm.. omg.. i must find an answer to that. hmm.. i need to be well equip of knowledge and more experinces. by choosing to be the supervisory role i can actually learn step by step and by that saying. i will have the confident to be the manager????????????????????? urgh. shit.

k la. forget it.

tmr breakfast with love. treat him to LJS. and after that i go to the library alone. =( hahaha

i love you su

essay

i have no idea how to start. should i do mind map?? urgh.. lazy i'm so lazy lazy pig. =( grrrrrrrr. i will just do it do it just like NIKE say it. just do it.

i miss you baby

=)

awesome day. not awesome person.

amira and adila tricked me. ahhh. we went to this shop that sells really low value clothes. we went in.. and guess what i bought 4tops. and they buy NOTHING!! but i'm really happy coz it only cost me like about $24. haha then i showed it off to suhairi. hehe can't wait to wear it. hehehe. actually it's just like simple tank top la. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH but i'm happy. hehe

xoxo

i love you so much

long luscious hair

i really regret cutting my hair. shouldn't have cut it. =(

MUST NOT CUTHAIR.. MUST NOT CUT HAIR.

baby, look at us

omg.. today marks our 3 years together. yea.. we've been like this break up and make up but still we're holding on strong. hehe i love you syg. i will take care of you. i have CPF. hehehehe you so cute la syg.. grrr. geram. see haiya.. hope wish our relationship last long till anak cucu. hahaha. i'm thankful to god that you chose me. POKEMON. urghh.. . it's gg 1am and i'm talking nonsense. but the bottomline is.. i love you. and i miss you so much. can't wait to meet you tmr and have fun at causewaypoint. we gg to watch paranormal activity 2. i hope it scares the shit out of me. hehehe so tak waste money la. anyway syg.. this song is for you. imagine i'm singin it to you. muackz muackz just can't wait to rape you tmr. HAHA




i cannot wait for my payday which is on the 29th. HOPEFULLY. i feel like buying ruggard torn jeans ya know. su have it. i also want. hehehe i hope F21 have it. EDC is too ruggard. maybe i buy EDC nye. hehe. see la how. i wanna shop shop shop.. i;mrunning out of clothes. 3 days at home don't suck. sweetness of doing nothing. watch TV sleep. eat junk foods.. crazy right. sigh. tmr can eat botak jones with su. (=

ok la. i'm still much awake right now. & really miss alot of my friends. but don't think they miss me. HAHAHAHHA

xoxo

BORING BORING BORING.!!!!!!!

happy dance

Haze at Vivo. =(
((=

Today don't start that good really. the night before my ipod failed me. FUCK. and i need to send all my assignments today as it is the last day of the module. grr.. i woke up and still not functioning. so i brought my lappy along with me. =( so heavy.. and need to redo it. and im so freaking happy that i pass this module. i really have no interest in it. i only have interest on finance. i don't know =( next week will be this new module buy merchandise. it's quite thick book. sigh. look at the bright side.. 2 more modules and i'm done with school.

and still have no idea what's next. i'm scared to think of it. really scared. don't know why?

we watched 2 movies. hehehe life as we know it and takers. and i kept crying and crying. sucks much. i'm very emotional. hahaha i enjoyed myself today syg. (= love you so much.

=/

things to do:

shower
change bedsheet
fold clothes
study

=(

so soso ososo so so so so so restless and lethargic.

i wanna go shopping. and yay tmr is thursday already =)
meet MR. Charming. (=

lapar

i so hungry. aku da abeskan all my assignment. bsok can concentrate on my written assestment. haiya.. jubuh aku gatal. aku nak berak but tadi ade cicak so aku geli nak masuk. hahaha k la.. aku berbual merepek.

bosan takde keje. aku rindu keje smpi terbawak bawak dalam mimpiku. sigh

aku pun rindu suhairi. see you soon syg

xoxo

lost for words by Lorelei mathias

omg.. i slept at 4am just to finish ^^ i've read.. so entertaining. found some quotes that i really like..

"I think that with Miles, you're falling in love - not with him, but with a projected ideal that you yourself have created. From his emails, from his incandescent, ever-so-charming manner, from all the things that you, in your head, have decided you want from a man, and have assumed that he's able to give you. It seems to me that you're in love with Miles the man. You're in love with the idea of Miles; with all the things that you've built him to be"

"Whatever you dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it"

i love it so much. i think Elliot the character is really handsome. HAHHAHAHA i imagine so much.. i have always wanted to ready\ harry potter book.. but just i don't know. haha.

will be meeting su later. (= watch movie and stuff. and it's so funny seh. this stranger said we are so loving. crazy. haha love you love

xoox

i miss my boyfriend.=(
yaya... i fucking shit.. can't wait for tmr. LAST DAY OF WORK. hahaha

DOING ASSIGNMENT NOW. SLEEP AT 1. URGH FUCK. I MISS YOU SO MUCH

i'm hungry baby. my hair is drying. hehehe.

it's funny that whenever i msg you kan.. then right.. everyday.. it will always be 11:11. weird. love you

i see RED

you know what. i couldn't find the alarm setting. grr..

i just colored my hair red.. that is what the color box says.. i can't wait to see it dry.. should i wash my hair tmr?? no need la.. and i don't know to go or not.. sigh.. will feel bad if i don't go. =(

i found the alarm setting already.. and it says that i can switch off my hp but it will sill ring.. this hp is real good. love it.. thans syg. muackz

(=

i love suhairi mansor.

xoxo

terrifying

there is this cockroach just lurking inside my room. i'm so scared and eyes cannot stop roving itself. haha coz i'm sleeping on the ground. urgh. i think i wanna move up later. sigh.. this is what happen when you stay on the lowest floor. =( and i hate it. alot of cockroaches. i hate them. since today is my birthday. i wish them to be gone forever. yikes. i wonder where is the cockroach now.. i am so damn paranoid about this cockroach. =( i need you baby. HAHAHAHHAHA kidding

i went to school. and seriously.. i cannot wait for it to end. it's boring i can die.. i have been like just scribbling and doodling haha serious.. grr.. and i need to redo half of my assignment. dammit. sucksucksucks. one more assigment to be hand in on thursday. so, i need to do it tmr night. wednesday full shift. =(

so.. on my lunch break went to visit su. just for awhile.. i really don't know where is his surgery and everything. i was like sitting at level 2 almost on the brink to tears.. but after that i called his mother and she said she's at level 3. hahah. funny right. haiya.. then saw su just lying on the bed.(SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!) blah blah blah met his sister.. passed the present to me. bandage skirt.. i'm thinkin of how to match it. like seriously. hahaha. don't know la.

and so.. i was really late to class.. and i was like.. aku nmpk cake kat atas table aku.. but everyone was like busy discussing about the assignment. and i was like what is this? they were like so shock and sang me HAPPY BIRTHDAY. and i teared. coz it's very overwhelming la.

i love today (=

really excited about the gift.. and haiya. where is the lipas? =(

DONE!!
HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 MORE ASSIGMENTS TO GO. JIA YOU!

Hi baby

i'm doing my assignment now. yay.. after so long.. midnight movie tmr after work. excited excited hahahaha

love you

the next day to meet su is next tuesday. looking forward for it.

i love you baby

not productive

i did nothing today. just lazying around. & i haven't eat a proper meal yet. =( waiting for siblings willingly going downstairs (ape nye kakak aku) yea.. so i could kirim and give them more money. haha. waiting for su messages. hmm.. yes. project procastinate till next week. which next week i will be working everday except tuesday =( i regretted doing that.. but it's ok. i will enjoy life on the 3rd week. meeting best of friends on18Oct. and this friday will be meeting sery. i promise not to cut my hair.. but i cut it anyways. i sucks. i kept spending and spending sigh sigh how to be successful like this. i promise myself not to shop for clothes anymore.. but i just make a list to buy eprit tube jeans for next pay. AHHAHAHAHAHHA contradictin la aku ni. k la.. bye.. want to watch korean variety show i persuade my adik buy for me fish burger and orea vanilla ice blended.

i learnt how to say please, thank you, you're welcome when i'm with su. (= haha

same old thing

school started. so bored.. need to start doing the project already.. but so bored can. urgh... f.. so boring =(

i miss su

AVATAR.

GOSH. just thinking of Su makes me feel like i am so fortunate and like contented that..you know the feeling of happiness, delirious joy. makes me wanna tear now. haha. i love you, baby.

met him halfway at Admiralty just now. waited for his so goddamn long friends. haha.. initially wanted to eat at Seoul Garden but too bad.. no Seoul Garden =( sigh.. so ended up at Pizza Hut.. i hate pizza hut. the service and all.. cheesy 7 looks so disgusting that i don't dare to eat it you know.

i love this moment.
su was saying goodbye then i said i see you. and he said i see you too.

xoxo

swimming

i learnt how to sink and dive just now. hehehe.

wah.. spent alot today =( but =) hahah

need to sleep
3days full shift. dammit tired